“Book Club of Our Generation” by Ally Beard – This Is My Brave College Edition


Hello I did tell Elizabeth I would try to
throw a couple jokes in mine but what I think is super funny is having a
clinically anxious person perform which is like undoubtedly the most anxious inducing you could do but here goes nothing my story is pretty
common it starts like most I got nervous in high school I would get worried about
a lot of things I’d get worried about regular things like an upcoming test or
keeping up with the latest trends which I was never really good at like someone please explain to me why Crocs are coming back into fashion but I would also
get worried about small things and I usually couldn’t figure out why they’d make me so anxious just like going to work every week or trying to pick out an outfit before school seemed impossible even in high
school I couldn’t pick out an outfit and back then you could wear anything as long
as it’s neon spoiler alert I had anxiety and depression but I didn’t know that
in tenth grade the only thing I knew for certain back then was the pythagorean theorem which I definitely use every day in my real life right now I realized I had anxiety when a really good friend of
mine pulled me aside in the hallway at school and said Ali I have to tell you something it’s kind of personal she was clearly very nervous so in my head I was like wow she’s about to tell me something really big I really hope she’s
not gonna pull me aside and try to recruit me to sell makeup online that
would have been tough for me because I’m very anti pyramid scheme but very pro local business thankfully she was not with Avon she
told me Ali I’ve been going to therapy for a while now and it’s great
my therapist helps me work through all of my emotions but the reason I want
to talk to you is because I’ve noticed a lot of the symptoms I had in you and I just
want to let you know that if you need anything I’m here for you that was undoubtedly difficult for her to share but I’m so glad she did because it changed my life
I re-examined myself I re-examined what I needed and within the next few months
I started going to therapy and I started taking antidepressant medications
it was like my own personal Eat Pray Love eventually things started looking
and feeling a lot better there were ups and downs throughout high school it was
like a rollercoaster actually it was a lot like a roller coaster because there was at one time when I threw up after a cross-country race my opinion is running is bad for you change my mind but after high school I was really excited to move away from home
when I started college it was this great new chapter in my life
and I thought it would be a great idea to start this new chapter and change things even more drastically by not continuing therapy which in hindsight does not make sense but my rationale was I would be too far
away from home to commute to my therapist and finding someone new on campus just felt like a chore and the last thing a freshman college student
wants to do is a chore but so September went well my freshman year but by
October inevitably I was struggling and I couldn’t figure out why I would have
bad days for no reasons at all I remember one day in particular it was beautifully sunny outside it was ahead of the Charles Regatta which is like some boat sport thing I don’t really even know land sports so I couldn’t tell you much more than that but the main attraction at least for me was this line of vendor tents along the river they were giving out all sorts of merchandise and free food samples it’s like grocery shopping on a college budget love that I
was walking around and even tried one of those like Lacroix fizzy water things
and I was like so fancy my free Lacroix it was great it was a great day once things wound down I started walking back to my dorm which was only
about a half mile away but sometime during that walk I just started crying and
could not figure out was I sad was I angry did I just need a Snickers bar in
hindsight it’s easy for me to see that I had depression and was just not
getting the same level of help that got me through high school but I didn’t realize it in that moment on that day sitting on that sidewalk I was just there crying thinking wow I must be allergic to Lacroix or something that was all I could think of that but within a few weeks I realized that I needed to get back to therapy so I went to the mental health center on campus and given their limited resources and high demand of their office they were able to make me feel better and set me on the right
track now some of my closest friends have been with me since before I started
my journey with anxiety and depression so they see me at my lowest points and
that really demonstrates how my friends are great people if you’re gonna be friends with
someone who bursts out crying on a sunny day just just because there’s like big boats in the water you have to be a great human being I really owe my friends a pizza or something my friends tell me that the person I am today is completely different than the person I was a year ago maybe because I’ve somehow only gotten worse at Words with Friends but maybe it’s because I seem to enjoy life a lot better and I make life more
enjoyable for the people around me which is incredibly important today
seeing the abundance of students on campuses that take advantage of
resources provided by the mental health center makes me happy that people are
addressing the issue of mental health and they’re willing to talk about it
it’s so common to be in therapy now it’s like the book club of my generation my
grandmothers they’re both off at bridge club moms are all at book club
sipping wine reading the latest Fifty Shades of Grey and then Millennials are
literally all in therapy it’s awesome I’ve become a mental health advocate in
my peer group on campus and at home I love being the person that someone can
turn to you when they have a question about anxiety or depression or they just
need someone to vent and listen now I’m the friend that’s giving advice about
anxiety which is way better than the friend selling makeup on Facebook

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“Book Club of Our Generation” by Ally Beard – This Is My Brave College Edition


Hello I did tell Elizabeth I would try to
throw a couple jokes in mine but what I think is super funny is having a
clinically anxious person perform which is like undoubtedly the most anxious inducing you could do but here goes nothing my story is pretty
common it starts like most I got nervous in high school I would get worried about
a lot of things I’d get worried about regular things like an upcoming test or
keeping up with the latest trends which I was never really good at like someone please explain to me why Crocs are coming back into fashion but I would also
get worried about small things and I usually couldn’t figure out why they’d make me so anxious just like going to work every week or trying to pick out an outfit before school seemed impossible even in high
school I couldn’t pick out an outfit and back then you could wear anything as long
as it’s neon spoiler alert I had anxiety and depression but I didn’t know that
in tenth grade the only thing I knew for certain back then was the pythagorean theorem which I definitely use every day in my real life right now I realized I had anxiety when a really good friend of
mine pulled me aside in the hallway at school and said Ali I have to tell you something it’s kind of personal she was clearly very nervous so in my head I was like wow she’s about to tell me something really big I really hope she’s
not gonna pull me aside and try to recruit me to sell makeup online that
would have been tough for me because I’m very anti pyramid scheme but very pro local business thankfully she was not with Avon she
told me Ali I’ve been going to therapy for a while now and it’s great
my therapist helps me work through all of my emotions but the reason I want
to talk to you is because I’ve noticed a lot of the symptoms I had in you and I just
want to let you know that if you need anything I’m here for you that was undoubtedly difficult for her to share but I’m so glad she did because it changed my life
I re-examined myself I re-examined what I needed and within the next few months
I started going to therapy and I started taking antidepressant medications
it was like my own personal Eat Pray Love eventually things started looking
and feeling a lot better there were ups and downs throughout high school it was
like a rollercoaster actually it was a lot like a roller coaster because there was at one time when I threw up after a cross-country race my opinion is running is bad for you change my mind but after high school I was really excited to move away from home
when I started college it was this great new chapter in my life
and I thought it would be a great idea to start this new chapter and change things even more drastically by not continuing therapy which in hindsight does not make sense but my rationale was I would be too far
away from home to commute to my therapist and finding someone new on campus just felt like a chore and the last thing a freshman college student
wants to do is a chore but so September went well my freshman year but by
October inevitably I was struggling and I couldn’t figure out why I would have
bad days for no reasons at all I remember one day in particular it was beautifully sunny outside it was ahead of the Charles Regatta which is like some boat sport thing I don’t really even know land sports so I couldn’t tell you much more than that but the main attraction at least for me was this line of vendor tents along the river they were giving out all sorts of merchandise and free food samples it’s like grocery shopping on a college budget love that I
was walking around and even tried one of those like Lacroix fizzy water things
and I was like so fancy my free Lacroix it was great it was a great day once things wound down I started walking back to my dorm which was only
about a half mile away but sometime during that walk I just started crying and
could not figure out was I sad was I angry did I just need a Snickers bar in
hindsight it’s easy for me to see that I had depression and was just not
getting the same level of help that got me through high school but I didn’t realize it in that moment on that day sitting on that sidewalk I was just there crying thinking wow I must be allergic to Lacroix or something that was all I could think of that but within a few weeks I realized that I needed to get back to therapy so I went to the mental health center on campus and given their limited resources and high demand of their office they were able to make me feel better and set me on the right
track now some of my closest friends have been with me since before I started
my journey with anxiety and depression so they see me at my lowest points and
that really demonstrates how my friends are great people if you’re gonna be friends with
someone who bursts out crying on a sunny day just just because there’s like big boats in the water you have to be a great human being I really owe my friends a pizza or something my friends tell me that the person I am today is completely different than the person I was a year ago maybe because I’ve somehow only gotten worse at Words with Friends but maybe it’s because I seem to enjoy life a lot better and I make life more
enjoyable for the people around me which is incredibly important today
seeing the abundance of students on campuses that take advantage of
resources provided by the mental health center makes me happy that people are
addressing the issue of mental health and they’re willing to talk about it
it’s so common to be in therapy now it’s like the book club of my generation my
grandmothers they’re both off at bridge club moms are all at book club
sipping wine reading the latest Fifty Shades of Grey and then Millennials are
literally all in therapy it’s awesome I’ve become a mental health advocate in
my peer group on campus and at home I love being the person that someone can
turn to you when they have a question about anxiety or depression or they just
need someone to vent and listen now I’m the friend that’s giving advice about
anxiety which is way better than the friend selling makeup on Facebook

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